Happy Birthday C!

In December 2008, I went back to Manila for a month long vacation. I have been away for 13 months. I brought home with me a list of things I had to buy, and activities I had to do.

After 27 days in the Philippines, it was time to return to London once again. I looked at my list, everything was ticked off, everything was done. On 3 January, the day of my flight, I wasn't too sad, the 27 days was enough for me, I had no regrets on how I spent my limited time back home.

But there was one thing that made leaving difficult, it was something not on my list, something I didn't plan to do. I met C on that fateful night in a hotel in Ortigas.

I was happy to have met you, but sad that things have to be put on hold for 10 months. I hope you never get tired of reading my YM messages. I hope you keep in touch. I hope fate is on my side.

In less than an hour (Manila time), this very special person in my life will celebrate his birthday. I hope you enjoy this day, I hope you have fun.

As for me, I guess I'll have to make do with seeing you in my dreams tonight.

Happy Birthday C!

Chances Are - Vonda Shepard & Robert Downey Jr.

Chances are you'll find me
Somewhere on your road tonight
Seems I always end up driving by
Ever since I've known you
It just seems you're on my way
All the rules of logic don't apply

I long to see you in the night
Be with you 'til morning light

I remember clearly how you looked
The night we met
I recall your laughter and your smile
I remember how you made me
Feel so at ease
I remember all your grace, your style

And now you're all I long to see
You've come to mean so much to me

Chances are I'll see you
Somewhere in my dreams tonight
You'll be smiling like the night we met
Chances are I'll hold you and I'll offer
All I have

You're the only one I can't forget
Baby you're the best, I've ever met

And I'll be dreaming of the future
And hoping you'll be by my side
And in the morning I'll be longing
For the night, for the night

Chances are I'll see you
Somewhere in my dreams tonight
You'll be smiling like the night we met
Chances are I'll hold you and I'll offer
All I have

You're the only one I can't forget
Baby you're the best I've ever met

Fancy some Footie?

The United Kingdom is a football country.

On the sports section of newspapers, it will be pages and pages of football players and their "wags". Only in this country does a change in manager of the national team makes front page news. And who would forget the fierce riots after emotionally charged games.

I've been here for over a year but I've managed to watch only one full game on TV. But I can now recognize a handful of the popular players. But just when I thought I can already start chatting with the Brits about football, I realized that I only know the hot footie players :)

Most Filipino gay men know David Beckham (but of course).

But let me introduce to you the other players that I know:

Cristiano Ronaldo

Frank Lampard

Steven Gerrhard

John Terry

Aren't they enough reasons to love football? :)

Happy Valentine's Day!

It's been a while since I last felt like saying "Happy Valentine's Day!" I don't even remember when. I don't despise people who say it to me, but I just respond politely with a "thank you".

I guess not being in a relationship for a long time has contributed to this. My last romantic relationship was in March 1998, with a girl! Yes, with a girl.

But this year is an exception. No, I'm not back in a relationship. I just feel like saying it.

To C, Happy Valentine's Day!

P.S. I know how you love receiving flowers, I hope this will do for the meantime.

Afraid for Love to Fade

For the longest time, I've been singing this song as part of my "Lea Concert Series" (my officemates would know what this means). But it was just a few weeks ago that I gave the lyrics of this song a closer look.

I then realized how much this song illustrates how I feel towards C.

C, from my heart to yours!

afraid for love to fade - lea salonga


My head's in a jam
Can't take you off my mind
From the time we met
I've been beset by thoughts of you
And the more that I ignore this feeling
The more I find myself believing
That I just have to see you again

I can't let you pass me by
I just can't let you go
But I know that I am much too shy
To let you know
Afraid that I might say the wrong words
And displease you
Afraid for love to fade
Before it can come true

Like a child again
I'm at a loss for words
How does one define
A crush combined with longing?
Longing to possess you oh so dearly
I'm obsessed by you completely
I'll go mad if I can't have you

I can't let you pass me by
I just can't let you go
But I know that I am much too shy
To let you know
Afraid that I might say the wrong words
And displease you
Afraid for love to fade
Before it can come true

(Instrumental)
I can't let you pass me by
I just can't let you go
Let me say the things and say the words
To let you know
I would rather say the awkward words
Than lose you
Or for love to fade
Before it can come true

This Broke My Heart

Too bad I wasn't able to watch the finals. But I'm sure it was one hell of a match just like the Wimbledon finals last year.