Random

Yup, it's been five months since my last entry. I have been so busy at work, doing 12-15 hours a day. In the rare times that I don't work overtime, I take the opportunity to sleep. Yup, sleep has been a very scarce commodity for me.

It's still crazy at work, but I really have to pause for a bit and write this post. Last weekend was a blast and it needs to be immortalized for its randomness. It was a tiring 3 days, yet I felt so refreshed this morning. Yey to randomness and good times with friends!!!

Thursday

3:55 pm - Feeling sleepy and tired, I decided I won't report to work the following day. My weekend starts a day early :)

10:00 pm - Left the office to meet MGG, Tony, Mcvie and D at Tomas Morato. MGG shared the story of letter sender who he met recently.

12:00 am - Moved to Coffee Bean to peek at someone's study date.

Friday

3:oo pm - Movie marathon with Tony. We watched "Red Riding Hood" and "Sucker Punch". 2 cutie guys in "Red Riding Hood". No hunks in "Sucker Punch". Fell asleep in the latter ;)

8:30 pm - Went home early as Tony was meeting the "kid".

12:00 am - Got a text from Dalumat, they're having a movie night at his place.

Saturday

1:30 am - Arrived in Dalumat's condo with "refreshments."

2:00 am - Watched "Dorian Gray". Ben Barnes is hot! Topless scenes and bisexual sex ;)

3:45 am - Went to the rooftop with Dalumat and Kayadudes, chit chatting while drinking more "refreshments".

5:00 am - Sleeping time.

12:30 pm - Woke up. Got news from Mom that car was just repaired and needs a road test. Agreed with Tony to have a road trip to Tagaytay.

1:30 pm - Went home.

4:30 pm - On the road to Mandaluyong to pick-up Tony and the kid. It's my first time to drive alone. Took me two hours to get to Mandaluyong, wahahaha.

6:30 pm - Arrived in Mandaluyong, an hour and a half late ;) Sorry naman.

7:00 pm - Group decides to go to Enchanted Kingdom instead. Back on the road. It's my first time to drive on the SLEX. Weeeee!!!! 100 kph!!!!

Playlist: Cast recording of Zsa Zsa Zaturnah, Priscilla Queen of the Desert and Mamma Mia!
8:00 pm - Stop-over at Mcdo for quick dinner.

8:30 pm - Enchanted Kingdom is closed for a Company event. Group decides to proceed to Tagaytay. Tony takes over the wheel.

9:20 pm - Arrived at a candle-lit Bag of Beans Tagaytay. Last 10 mins of Earth Hour. Had hot choco and chicken & mushroom pie. Group played "Hot, Cute or Not".

10:30 pm - Moved to the Ridge to savor more of the cool breeze.

11:20 pm - To Manila! Tony drives again.

12:00 am - Quick wiwi break at Shell SLEX. Got back on the driver's seat.

Sunday

1:00 am - Arrived back in Mandaluyong after running over a dead dog in C5, and dangerously making a left turn and not slowing down in a round-about. All passengers are still alive, shaken, but alive ;)

1:30 am - Private scene. I see a different side of a friend. To borrow MGG's word, I saw his "humanity".

2:00 am - Went to the rooftop again to chat and drink with Tony and the kid. Another tenant having a drinking spree there. Tall guy in a striped white polo shirt looks cute. Flirt mode on. Tony and the kid moves to the other side of the rooftop. I stay in place, 5 meters away from the other tenant's group. Tenant invites me to join in. Group asks if I have a girlfriend (see? nakakaloko pa rin ako ;) ) I flirt with the tall guy. Random chit-chat with the girls. Tenant tells me that tall guy is his bf, but they are open to threesomes ;) Weeee!!!

Another tenant re-joins the group. I move away from the group to talk to one of the drunken girls. Other tenant comes up to me and shouts "Do you even live here?". Apparently he was jealous that tenant with BF was talking to me. Mujerista in the group takes me to the elevator to escape. We hear glass doors shattering as we run.

3:30 am - We regroup in tenant with BF's unit. Freak suddenly appears and is still looking for me. Security is called. I hide in the closet. Fuck, back in the closet!!!

4:00 am - Freak leaves and is escorted to his unit. I finally come out of the closet ;) Tony and the kid arrives to save me ;) I decide to stay, the freak has left anyway, and there's another cute guy in the group.

5:00 am - I say goodbye to other cute guy in the hallway ;)

5:30 am - Sleep time for the wicked.

12:30 pm - Drove back home via EDSA.

1:30 pm - Arrived home safely.

Salamat!

Life has been good to me, not only this year, but for the most part of my life.

But as mentioned in my last post, I’ve reached a milestone in my life, I now embrace the person that I am. I guess it’s just proper that I thank the people who have helped me get to this point.

To the author of the first gay blog I have ever read. Thank you for opening this new world to me, especially to the elite circle of gay bloggers that I admire. Despite us meeting in person only a few times, you were warm, genuinely interested and caring. Oh, and you bitch-slapped me once over the phone, which I badly needed at that time.

To you who I met in a dance floor. Thank you for being friendly that night even if you were feeling awkward and vulnerable. Thank you for sharing my blog to the rest of my idols. If not for you, I would have remained a distant fan and would have missed all the fun times and new friends.

To the one who sent me a message in Multiply. Imagine how thrilled I was to get a message from you. You kindly said hello to just one of the fans. We’ve spent so many hours chatting about so many things, we even had some “Sister Aloysius” moments. I value your thoughts and opinions. I respect your point of view. Thank you for listening and not getting tired of my issues.

To the guy beside me on that round table. Thanks for the nudge! Or as you say a “shove”. I can be dense at times so the shove was highly necessary. Thank you for waking my sleeping heart. It was nice to find out that my heart was still in perfect working condition. You have taught my heart lessons which will help me become a better person.

To the umbrella-breaker. We haven’t spent a lot of time together. We barely chatted when I was still far away. But I feel a strong bond with you. I intend to nurture our friendship in the coming years.

To my former online chat buddy. Thank you for spending time chatting with me. It was fun to discover things about you. Thank you for confiding in me.

To the bitch. Thank you for bringing me back to my senses. You’ve done this a few times already without you knowing it. I’m not even sure if you consider me your friend, but to me you are one.

To my British blogger friend. You are such a friendly guy, thank you for agreeing to meet me despite my difficult schedule. It was an honor to meet you in person. I admire your writing skills and wish you all the best in life. I’ll keep my promise to keep in touch.

To the shy guy beneath the surface. I was caught off-guard (in a good way) by a lot of things about you. Thank you for trusting me with details of your love life. I discovered a lot about you in just a short time. Thank you for teaching me the benefit of having no expectations. Hope to see more of you this coming year.

To the silent followers of this blog, thank you for taking time to visit my site. Wishing you a happy and prosperous new year!!

A New Journey Begins!

Yes, London Boy is no longer in London.

I'm back home for good.

My last few months in the UK were so busy, which explains the lack of blog posts (oh and this as well).

I have been a very good, chaste boy during most of my stay in London, but I made up for it by doing a lot of naughty stuff before going home. And so I come back with no regrets, no "what ifs" in my mind.

When I left for the UK two years ago, I embarked on a new journey in my life. And now I come back to Manila not to continue my previous journey, but to start a new one. This time it's different. I have now decided to fully live my life as a gay man. I resolve not to hide my light under a bushel. I have some fear in my heart, perhaps fear of the unknown. But I am also very excited. Excited about the people I will meet, the places I will see and the experiences I will have.

I've been here a week, and I've left the house just two times. Both days were spent to meet my new and old gay friends. I had so much fun. I hope there is more to come!

Join me in my new journey :)

Happy Birthday C!

In December 2008, I went back to Manila for a month long vacation. I have been away for 13 months. I brought home with me a list of things I had to buy, and activities I had to do.

After 27 days in the Philippines, it was time to return to London once again. I looked at my list, everything was ticked off, everything was done. On 3 January, the day of my flight, I wasn't too sad, the 27 days was enough for me, I had no regrets on how I spent my limited time back home.

But there was one thing that made leaving difficult, it was something not on my list, something I didn't plan to do. I met C on that fateful night in a hotel in Ortigas.

I was happy to have met you, but sad that things have to be put on hold for 10 months. I hope you never get tired of reading my YM messages. I hope you keep in touch. I hope fate is on my side.

In less than an hour (Manila time), this very special person in my life will celebrate his birthday. I hope you enjoy this day, I hope you have fun.

As for me, I guess I'll have to make do with seeing you in my dreams tonight.

Happy Birthday C!

Chances Are - Vonda Shepard & Robert Downey Jr.

Chances are you'll find me
Somewhere on your road tonight
Seems I always end up driving by
Ever since I've known you
It just seems you're on my way
All the rules of logic don't apply

I long to see you in the night
Be with you 'til morning light

I remember clearly how you looked
The night we met
I recall your laughter and your smile
I remember how you made me
Feel so at ease
I remember all your grace, your style

And now you're all I long to see
You've come to mean so much to me

Chances are I'll see you
Somewhere in my dreams tonight
You'll be smiling like the night we met
Chances are I'll hold you and I'll offer
All I have

You're the only one I can't forget
Baby you're the best, I've ever met

And I'll be dreaming of the future
And hoping you'll be by my side
And in the morning I'll be longing
For the night, for the night

Chances are I'll see you
Somewhere in my dreams tonight
You'll be smiling like the night we met
Chances are I'll hold you and I'll offer
All I have

You're the only one I can't forget
Baby you're the best I've ever met

Happy Valentine's Day!

It's been a while since I last felt like saying "Happy Valentine's Day!" I don't even remember when. I don't despise people who say it to me, but I just respond politely with a "thank you".

I guess not being in a relationship for a long time has contributed to this. My last romantic relationship was in March 1998, with a girl! Yes, with a girl.

But this year is an exception. No, I'm not back in a relationship. I just feel like saying it.

To C, Happy Valentine's Day!

P.S. I know how you love receiving flowers, I hope this will do for the meantime.

Afraid for Love to Fade

For the longest time, I've been singing this song as part of my "Lea Concert Series" (my officemates would know what this means). But it was just a few weeks ago that I gave the lyrics of this song a closer look.

I then realized how much this song illustrates how I feel towards C.

C, from my heart to yours!

afraid for love to fade - lea salonga


My head's in a jam
Can't take you off my mind
From the time we met
I've been beset by thoughts of you
And the more that I ignore this feeling
The more I find myself believing
That I just have to see you again

I can't let you pass me by
I just can't let you go
But I know that I am much too shy
To let you know
Afraid that I might say the wrong words
And displease you
Afraid for love to fade
Before it can come true

Like a child again
I'm at a loss for words
How does one define
A crush combined with longing?
Longing to possess you oh so dearly
I'm obsessed by you completely
I'll go mad if I can't have you

I can't let you pass me by
I just can't let you go
But I know that I am much too shy
To let you know
Afraid that I might say the wrong words
And displease you
Afraid for love to fade
Before it can come true

(Instrumental)
I can't let you pass me by
I just can't let you go
Let me say the things and say the words
To let you know
I would rather say the awkward words
Than lose you
Or for love to fade
Before it can come true

The First Post

Well, the title says it all.

I am an auditor, a crappy one! wehehe

I have a personal blog already, but since I'm a closeted gay man, there are a lot of stuff that I am unable to say there (sad but true).

So this is my solution, another blog where I will be able to talk about my closeted gay life.

I have not done a good job posting entries in my other blog (cause most of the stuff happening recently in my life are gay-related), so I hope I do better in here.

Wish me luck!